I've been more or less isolated for 10 years. Haven't been out on the town and social since about age 30 (I'm 40 now). I am single and never married.


I am not sure if it's my bipolar or if it's just a personality trait. I think it's the latter because I don't usually go out even when I feel OK. And it's not really social anxiety either. I am not uncomfortable around people I know, it's just I don't attempt to go out with them for whatever reason. I think it's partly due to my overall life situation. I hate explaining to people anything about my life so I don't attempt to make new friends. I don't want the judgement.


It sucks because I am a pretty good looking dude. 6'0, 200lbs. I have had my opportunity with plenty of women but I just don't get too close for the aforementioned reason. Doesn't help that I am broke as well. Women are all about the $$$$, and I don't have that. Wouldn't matter what I looked like, especially at my age. Women over 35 want $$$$.