I do think it's a change thing with me also. It's also fear of the unknown. I write about navigating life with a mental illness. So, its autobiographical. The cold fact is not everyone is going to like the book. Which translates in my brain as they don't like me. I worry about judgement, but I write about all the different aspects of being mentally ill because our journeys matter...not just mine, all of ours. So, I write and I'm terrified.