McKell,
I don't know if I elaborated enough here. I also fell into the place where I ignored my needs completely. When I entered therapy I had no sense of self and struggle with this daily. I thought it was good enough to do the opposite of what my mother did. It wasn't. I was completely fragmented and work on integration daily. So, the pendulum swings back and forth from our childhood to our adulthood and to our children.
It's my daily affirmation not to kick myself or beat myself up. Sometimes I am successful, and often I am not.
I think everyone here is amazing, and I admire the work we are all doing.
Peace