Hi all, I'm new here. Recently I've been struggling with the worst self esteem I've ever had. I've never really liked myself much but lately my self hatred has been interfering with my life. All day I just think about how much I hate everything about myself. I'm not attractive, nor intelligent, nor do I have any skills or talents that make me special. I can't find one positive thing about myself. I feel like such a waste. It makes me barely want to do anything anymore, like go outside.

In addition I don't think anybody actually likes me. Nobody has ever shown interest in me, my friends never make any effort to contact me anymore, and when I go out in public I feel like everybody is staring at me like I'm some weirdo. I'm very shy so that might be why but it still sucks feeling like I'm being glared at everywhere I go. It makes me really insecure to go out in public. To be honest, though, I don't blame anyone for not liking me. I don't even like me. I just wish I could find some relief from this because the constant self loathing is getting really tiring.