I don't dread reaching a milestone, I do find myself let down by no longer having the big goal to strive towards. For example, we bought a picker shack when we bought our house because it was what we could afford. It didn't meet code in any way shape or form. The 2x4's in the walls were turned sideways, the foundation was on tree stumps... to name a few. We worked on making it liveable and saved money for 7 yrs. It was a primary focus of our lives. We tore it down and had a new house built. Once it was done, I had not joy and still have no joy of the house. I was lost and for several years in a mild depression because I didn't know what to do next. I do this with almost all projects and in the end find no joy or happiness of the end product. It is like another thing has been crossed of my to do list, nothing more, nothing less.

Congratulations on completing your book. Yes, beyond the typical artists anxiety, this one is a autobiography and that means lots of vulnerability being put out into the world. It is brave of you to be willing to share such intimate thoughts and feelings.