2 1/2 years clean and all it took was my ex asking if I still knew ppl to get me thinking about it and craving it. I stepped off the ledge of smart, cautious, rational thinking and plunged right into dumb selfish ***** addict! That was 3 weeks ago and I still haven’t really stop because I don’t have time in my life to come down crashing back to earth, reality, responsibility, and severe consequences. I swore last time I’d never touch the **** again because it wasn’t worth it and yet here I am up third day straight and praying to God for help, protection, and forgiveness... sorry I word vomited lol. Hope I didn’t offend or trigger anyone. Thank you for the outlet to share my humbling experience