Hi,
I am a demisexual man, I am 32 now and never got the sexual attraction to anybody except twice in my lifetime.
More precisely only once in a life time, the first time one only for some transient time.
Even though I want sex (actually I want cuddling, kiss and romance more) but not get attracted to anyone, and don't feel like I will have sex with anyone if I am not strongly connected.
I made a new close friend with whom I was working for a project. He used to remain with me all the time in the morning and evening for the project. Many time he would try to give nonverbal romantic messages, but at the beginnning, I used to ignore it, as I was thinking him as a friend. But after a month I started feeling attracted, it was a very strong attraction and connection. I still used to ignore because I was unsure of the nonverbal signal. I might be misinterpreting the messages, as I like him it might be a bias. Once I directly proposed him, but he just said it's not possible (when we discussed sexuality, I said I am bisexual because I didn't know the term demisexual at that time, he also said he is bisexual) and again the next day he started giving nonverbal romantic signals despite saying he is not interested. When I asked does he want to stay only as a friend, he remained completely silent. I have almost 30 evidence of nonverbal clues, he also left the job for me, as he says. He left after completion of the project, and went the home, lying to me that he will go for a job in Pune. He seems to have some financial problem. But he never went Pune. After he left, I started desperately missing him. We made a fight in telephone because he is not saying the truth about all the evidence. When I ask him to meet me, he is not getting agree and blocking my phone. Now its a year, I have become a full-time entrepreneur and programmer and working as a startup. In the beginning, we decided to work together for the startup, but he has a financial problem so he went for a job instead of unpaid work in a startup. I still miss him, but he is not saying anything other than I am not interested and has blocked all my number. It will take another few months to earn from startup so that I can call him and work together. But I don't know whether he will agree or not, he doesn't allow me to talk on the phone for more than 1 min. During birthday I wished him a happy birthday, he messaged me to buy him a gift, so I send some money. I don't know why he is behaving like this. I have not expected anything from him. But he is not open to his feeling, what he wants, neither allowing me to talk with him. What shall I do? He as created a void in my life, that was never there. Shall I forget him or try more. Trying is so frustrating for me.