Checking on you, @BirdDancer. I hope your day is going better today! I'm so sorry things are being so hard but be proud of yourself for how you're handling this tough situation. You're talking things through with your Husband, trying to get help from your Doctors, you're writing here, you're thinking about what to do, you're trying to do EVERYTHING that's in your power to get better. That's WONDERFUL! Be proud of yourself. I'm sure you'll feel better before you realize. Let me know if I, or anyone here, can help you one way or another! Keep writing if that helps as well! Wishing you the BEST of Luck with your Healing and your Journey in Life! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, BirdDancer, your Husband, your Family, your Friends and ALL Of Your Loved Ones! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF!