Hello Phoenix ~ I'm very very sorry to hear you have Agoraphobia as well

It is crippling in nature.
I tried to go out with some neighbors awhile back. We were supposed to go to one pharmacy and I needed to pick up a prescription. then I thought we would come straight back home. Then they all wanted to go out to lunch. I spent most of the lunch in the restroom shivering in fear. I never ate my lunch. After lunch, they wanted to visit some shops that were close by. So, that one trip turned into an overwhelming experience for me and hours later they brought me home. It took days to recover from that.
Now, I arrange for volunteer transportation to take me one place, which they do and bring me back immediately. As long as I know I am going to a doctors appointment, if I have a panic attack, they will know what to do for me and I can never travel more than a mile from home. So, my social calendar is only doctors appts and out to pharmacies now.
Last week, even going to a doctors appt, by the time I got outside my door, I was shaking so badly, I could barely stand up.
You are soo lucky your boyfriend understands and will take you where you need to go, soo very lucky !! It's the safety thing, I agree. When I drove, at least I could flee to my car. Now that I no longer own a car and can't drive, when I leave my home, there is no safe place to flee to.
Birdie
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Originally Posted by Phoenix_1
Hummingbird1950, I can relate to your agoraphobia. I've been agoraphobic since a really bad marriage 10 years ago. I guess I just can't trust people so I don't let people get close. I wish I could. I have 1 friend, my boyfriend.
My big trips outside by myself are usually to the doctor or pharmacy. I don't go anywhere else by myself. I don't own a car, so I walk or take the bus. Thank goodness for my boyfriend. He takes me shopping every week. I feel safe with him at least.
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