I don't know if that helps, Crypts, but you'd certainly be missed by MANY here like this thread has already shown - including myself, of course! I COMPLETELY agree with what ALL the other wise, wonderful posters have already wisely said BETTER THAN I EVER COULD! Please don't hurt yourself. You have much more value than you believe. Please be kind to yourself, my friend. I know that's a selfish thing to say, but I'm REALLY HAPPY that you're here with us. You've helped me when I needed it the most. Now it's time to use some of that immense kindness towards yourself Be extra kind to yourself to day. As always, feel free to PM me anytime. You know I care, and so do many others here! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, @Crypts_Of_The_Mind, and ALL Of Your Loved Ones!