Sorry you're having a rough time.

I have a complicated relationship with my family too, so I can't talk to them. I am lucky that my husband is supportive and listens when I'm having a rough time. I also have several trusted friends that I can talk to. As seesaw says the Emotional Support area in chat can be helpful too if I need support right away. People are really kind and helpful and have been there when I needed someone to listen.