It's my 2nd abnormal pap exam. Now I will need surgery, a biopsy I assume. Missed the doctors call yesterday. Thought it was spam was driving, and didn't take it. He left a message.

I kind of hope it kills me whatever it is. I've been depressed lately. Forgot to take my meds a couple times, which isn't helping.

My daughter was telling me her plans for marriage a children and I wasn't included, I really do want to die. Her step mom is who she talked about having care for her kids when she couldn't. I said what about me I'm your mother!? She said her step mother would be retired by than.

My luck I won't die, just suffer a lot. But I do really hope this is my out. Doesn't cervical cancer have a high death rate?