I was actually out of the hospital. I didn't explain well. Every week I filled my pill box under supervision. Then that went home and went into a box that was locked with a code. I had access to that so I could have taken that much medication at once but no more than a week's worth which was fairly safe (and as my therapist pointed out, if I wanted to overdose I could go into any store and buy meds that he couldn't control). The box at home being locked was meant to slow me down if I got upset and impulsive; I never needed that safety feature.

It wasn't fun but it wasn't that bad either. It was what I needed to be safe and it worked. I'd do it again if I had to.