Doing what we can is ALWAYS enough, Crypts! You're only human. I understand why you're hurting but please don't put all of these expectations on yourself - no one is perfect! You're doing what you can and I feel like that's ALWAYS enough. Some things are just out of our control sometimes. We're not to blame. Please be kind to yourself! Remember that you're very much Loved here. I hope writing here helps a bit. In any case, you can always PM me, my friend. You know I'll NEVER judge you, and I'm sure plenty of others here will listen without judging as well! Remember that you're stronger than you think. Please hang in there. Keep venting here AS MUCH AS YOU LIKE! You're important, you matter, you're worth it and you're WONDERFUL! You know that's ASOLUTELY true, my dear, sweet friend! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, @Crypts_Of_The_Mind, and ALL Of Your Loved Ones!