You are more than welcome. I have a lot of empathy for what you are going through. I am a mother to two little ones about the same age as yours. I got sick myself for the first time last fall. It came on very suddenly and my episode was pretty extreme. I had full blown manic psychosis with hallucinations and everything. My husband took the brunt of my fury while I was in that state. I am very happily married and for some reason my brain made him the enemy. I still don't understand why. I had to be taken from my home in front of my children. Very sad times.

My father came to me in the hospital. He cried and held my hand and begged me to realize my husband was my best friend and that my mind was broken. He begged me to accept help and partner with my husband on all of my treatment. I remembered all that my parents had suffered and I promised my dad I would fight with all I had to fix what I had broken and that I would do everything I could to protect my marriage and my family.

It was devastating, but my Mother's experience served me during my own trauma. I can see that I might have pushed my husband away if I had not seen what it did to my parents. I took their tragedy and honored my father and used it to hold onto something good. I'm doing well 9 months later and our family is happy and healing. My hope is that you can have that too. It makes me happy to know that sharing a little bit about my pain helps in some way.