When I 1st started to throw up my food -I liked the comfort the smell made me feel I had a friend. Then I visited my family home and then My mom knew and stopped talking to me for awhile.I then got addicted to vomiting and would not stop myself unless I seen green bile. I hated food in my stomach coz I thought it would make me fat...soon after I started to binge on food that was easy to puke up like potatoes,milk,icecream. I got help from staff and then i only binge eat and puke when I felt stressed not coz it helped me loose weight.it became a mental illness-like a slave to food.