Hi Jay - tis your friend, Peanut again. I'm glad that you came back!! I know that the pain of what you are going thru seems overwhelming right now, but it won't always be that way, and once suicide is done, it cannot be undone, ya know? The current problems that you're going thru, as painful as they are, are not permanent - it's amazing the kinds of things that can happen in the future, even next week, to make things completely different. I know it's hard to believe that when you are feeling so down, but it is true. I hope that you will keep coming here and talk to us, and, don't forget, you can call free the 1-800-SUICIDE number to talk to someone who can listen and talk things over without judgment as often as you want to, because the important thing is that you stick around so that when positive things do start to happen, (and they will), you will be here to enjoy them without so much pain as you feel now. Take care!! Peanut

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