I know I should ask my treatment providers things but I like other people's opinions as well.
So I was diagnosed DDNOS in 2003 and DID in the last 3 months. I believe I am OSDD. Anyway, over the last couple of weeks I have been having some things happen that didn't used to. Examples:
1) I wanted to trace the letter 2 on the desk calendar just because I was bored. All of the sudden my thoughts had a childlike tone. The thoughts said you trace like this baby and I finished tracing. Then I was like what was that even though I was completely aware of what I was doing.
2) Last night I had to go to the bathroom. I walked to the bathroom but then again the childlike thought said you go pee pee like this as I used the bathroom. Again completely aware of what was going on. Realized that was odd and that was the end of it.
3) I was in bed. I had the childlike thought pop up as I was rubbing my stomach ( sounds like a thought but babyish) Rub your belly like this little baby. Then I realized I was being weird then stopped.
I am aware of what I am doing but I am not doing it on purpose. Does that make sense? There is some kind of disconnect like I'm there but someone else is guiding.
I noticed I have these type thoughts and behaviors mainly after I have been thinking about DID. Like if I'm thinking about what my counselor said about something or what book I needed to get for therapy etc.
Anyone know what could be happening?
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