So I'm not as emotional today but that's probably because everyone is here. I got this. I can't breathe but that's okay. I need to tell them I'm paranoid when alone, hearing things, and not thinking straight. If they want me IP it'll only be for a couple of days because I am not a threat to myself. I will cry but I will go. I'm going to shower before my appointment. Sorry for my multiple threads/meltdowns lately. I'm not promising they will stop. It's embarrassing, I want to take them down but maybe it'll help someone feel less alone/find their words. I slept 4 hrs last night. Not sleeping is not helping.