Hey Blue. I understand what you mean about feeling a supernatural force emanating energy around you. I experienced that when I was in psychosis. I also had the experience that I was living in a not so real reality. Both of those felt 100% true at the time.

I am an analyst and a strategist. I've been here looking for patterns ever since I got sick about 9 months ago. I feel like if I can understand how psychosis manifests, I can better recognize it in the future and separate my delusions from reality. I have noticed a pattern here with several of us who experience psychosis. We feel there is an energy force that is beyond us that is exerting force upon us. Some of these are positive and some are negative. I realize there are things outside of my knowing that I cannot explain. However, it strikes me as important that the experiences with these energies resolve when certain medication changes are made. That leads me to believe that this is a manifestation of the brain and our brains are incorrectly interpreting a phenomena we create for ourselves. The alternative would mean the entity senses when your meds are right and then goes away. That seems possible, but honestly far less likely.

My belief is you are experiencing psychosis. Try telling yourself that your brain is misfiring and responding incorrectly to an increase in neural activity. That may help you deal with the feelings. I don't know if that will work, but it is the best plan I've crafted for myself if this ever happens to me again. I also plan to visualize my little bubble I spoke about earlier and to focus on pulsing out the energy I want to emit as opposed to worrying about outside forces acting upon me. I think of us as having both transmission and reception centers and focusing more on what I am consciously sending out will maybe help me to forget about the manifestations around me.

I hope this helps a little. I do know how this feels and it was very uncomfortable for me. I hope you find some peace today.