I'm gonna smoke a bit more when people aren't in the front yard and then listen to a duncan trussell (Spiritual philosopher/comedian) podcast (The one with his mom having stage 4 cancer and still living for 4 years).

I believe listening to those podcasts will help me understand more about my mom having cancer and what I can do to help her state of mind because she's not dealing with it very well. She's denying that she has cancer and is really stressed out, drinking too much wine, wanting to refuse chemo and not caring about her severe heart conditions anymore by not taking her beta blockers on time. She's not really thinking deeply about her cancer. She's saying "I'm so stressed out that I forget that I have cancer" and that she doesn't want to lose her hair.

My mom is getting a bit of help with CBD capsules.