that totally is the goal Pseudonym... at times i can get her to think about her own healing just by talking about my own and at times she's given good signs... but she recedes back again.....

well... she's had a tough life, no doubt.... and she's mom, so in what way could i resent her? just wouldnt be right...

somedays shes' so dark she doesnt seem to care who recieves the darkness shes' releasing....

it really makes me think a lot about what it means to be compassionate.. i mean i actually have to thnk about it.. thats sad enuf isnt it?

but.... i'm learning to live and feel love again.... my heart was disconnected from my mind so many years and re-integrating is pretty exhausting on me...

so... no doubt..moms' health matters very much... i try not to shed any darkness where she is....

some days thats the most i can do... and some days, thats not enough...

optimism tho...