Nobody else was responding, just a long line of my own posts, and usually get into trouble for that. I just didn't want to start a new thread for everything since it's related to this.


I do have another update on this though.

I decided I did want the side obsession object, it's something I have looked at before and do want one. I had to go out today anyway so I decided to look for one, and buy if I found one for a reasonable price. There is only one shop there that would have had them. At first I was worried about my nervousness, so I kept telling myself there's nothing to be nervous about, it's OK, I can buy one etc. And today I went.

I actually felt no nervousness at all. I had to go to a few other shops and then went to this one (it was furthest away). I looked all around and couldn't find any. I did find something similar, and I did look at them, but they weren't what I wanted.

I was so disappointed because I was hoping to get one. Now I will have to wait until I go somewhere else, and they might not have them either.

But the main thing I got from this was, that the nervousness has gone (for side obsessions at least) so I don't have that problem. I just need to find somewhere that actually has what I want. At least now I know when I go somewhere else, I won't have the nervousness problem, I can easily go look. And I don't think I'd have any trouble actually buying one either.