Thank you for your thoughtful comment, EMr. When I am at my calmest and most centered, the idea is going back to Liz and working through things with her seems very healthy and productive. I think I am finally truly understanding transference after all this time, where I am responding to the present as though it is the past. I am hopeful that getting a different outcome this time with her will change all sorts of important things for me. But time will tell...