Yes,I know the feeling.I got hit and mocked at for smiling,laughing, being energetic, being curious,being inquisitive,for singing,for dancing,for trying to learn a new skill,for wearing a good dress,for being beautiful,for crying,for playing,for getting hurt while playing,for being hungry, for eating,for visiting a friend............so on so forth.Not knowing what to do ,what to say,what is the right thing to do in a given scenario really meddles your brain.It makes the brain confused.I have witnessed some people who go to a funeral and laugh loud.Pretty messed up yeh.So if you got always invalidated growing up.You become numb.I am so sorry dear.