Aug 23, 2019 at 05:29 PM
20 years Bulimic. This therapist has done a better job than the others. I no longer binge I will just purge any meal that causes me to feel "full". If I am careful and eat small meals where I am satisfied and not full it will not trigger me to purge.
Ok well that is not totally true. Sometimes I will purge because I hate myself and think if I am skinner I will be loved.
Ok well that is also not all the facts. Sometimes when triggered and in an emotional flashback I will emotionally eat and then purge it.
I still purge once a week. We have worked on not feeling shame when it happens or beating myself up over it.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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