I can completely relate to just about every word here in your post. None of my family understands (or can even begin to wrap their minds around the concept), some even think im making it all up to get attention. Which is absurd! How many agoraphobic (among other things) seek attention? Well, I honestly don't know the answer to that question, and Im sure there might be some that do. I, on the other hand, do not. It would be nice to have company over every now and then, or where I could bring myself to venture outside and go meet/ make new friends. Yet at the end of the day, I feel more and more like an alien/ a complete stranger to my own family. As if, they are happier when Im not around, so they are reminded that there is something wrong with me. I imagine it makes em feel awkward, my illness, yet its no walk in the park for me either. So here I sit, utterly alone within these four walls I call home. Oh, and then there is the weight loss - at this rate, ive lost over 60lbs in less then 11 months. Cant complain there though, think that's the only part of this I actually like?