Sorry Spikes. Rage is a tough one and you're working really hard to get through it. I think you're doing your best with the coping skills you know. My advice would be to give it time and remember it will eventually pass.

I noticed you mentioned you are using cannabis. What form are you using? CBD has been shown to assist with some mental struggles, but high levels of THC can exacerbate them, especially psychosis. A lot of strains are high in THC and it is hard to control the dosing. I know it feels better sometimes to self medicate, but I worry for you given what you've experienced over the last couple of weeks.

Stay safe ok? No more bridge talk!