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Originally Posted by spikes
I've already tried walking, showering, journaling/writing, music, taking zyprexa (my only current PRN), reading, using cannabis, watching TV/movies, playing keyboard, going for a drive, drinking, punching pillows, screaming into pillows, ripping up paper, deep breathing, and spending time with my cats.
I don't know what makes them go away (hence this thread), it's extremely frequent (hence the word "constant" in the title), and no clue what my therapist would say because she has no ****ing idea how much I have been struggling these past few days.
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Have you tried drinking a warm beverage? I find that hot cocoa is very soothing when I take small sips and take in the scent of the cocoa. Coffee and tea work well for this too.
Like fern, I’m concerned about your cannabis use. Some strains are dangerous for us folks.
Have you reached out to your therapist? Does she know at all about your rage?
I think right now, you should reach out to a mental health professional, be it the hospital, your pdoc, your therapist, your group therapy leader, crisis team... anyone. I think they can help you a lot. Heck, even a crisis hotline might be worth trying. Basically, try to find someone who you can talk to over the phone, thru texts, or in person.
Stay safe, spikes. We all care deeply about you.