Ended up lying down in session for the first time ever. We had only been talking for like 15 minutes or so before I started feeling the typical signs of dissociation. I was dizzy, my vision started going blurry, and nothing felt real. I felt like I couldn’t look at him. I was having a hard time keeping my head up because of the dizziness, so he suggested that I lie down on the couch. I felt kinda weird about it but eventually did because I was so light headed and out of it. He was really sweet and handled everything well. I was speaking so softly (due to being dizzy) that he could barely hear me, so he had to pull his chair up close. He made a point to tell me every movement he was gonna do before he did it, which I appreciated as I probably would have started panicking otherwise. I’m a little embarrassed about this happening in front of him, but I guess it could have been worse. The only thing that concerns me now—and this probably sounds really stupid—is that I was wearing pretty short athletic shorts, so I’m worried that when I was lying down he might have seen too much? Because of the position I was in and where he was sitting, I feel like everything would have been right in his line of sight... Since I was so out of it I didn’t bother to adjust accordingly to make sure everything was covered up. I’d be mortified if he saw up my shorts, but it seems somewhat likely. I don’t even know how I would ask him this though, and would it be too weird?
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