I was told by friends and family that i am manipulative, controlling, and only care about myself. I know i can be manipulative. its not wrong. people are. they are always wrong and they need me to point them in the right direction. And i do only care about myself. i couldnt care less about other people and how they feel and what they are dealing with. it doesnt affect me. but why does everyone get so mad about it? like im doing you a favor calm down. and if someone does me wrong i make them feel bad until they apologize, because they are the problem. i have to be the best at everything. my life is a constant competition. its crazy. this isnt my schizophrenia is it? i know its not normal to feel this way but its how i feel. there are only two sides to everything, no in between, and everyone except myself are idiots who need me. but sometimes i need to figure things out for myself which is why i am here. any thoughts?