Hi Spikes, I am glad you have made it this far. I believe you can make it through this tough time and can, once again, enjoy your life.
I know I have had times which were very, very rough and I have wanted to find a way out. I do believe you can make it through this and can experience a joy in life again. I hope you will hold on and will fight. You are well worth it.
Should you decide to go, I wish you well. I hope you find healing. Much Love