I am DEEPLY SORRY that you're hurting so much, @ExplodingSun56. Please don't hurt yourself! I won't give you advice since you've explicitly requested not to do so, but I can't deny that I AM worried about your safety. I hope you'll reconsider and decide to stay here. If venting helps you, please keep doing it as much as you want. I'll listen to what you have. I promise you that. I am sure everyone else will do the same as well. Please be kind to yourself. You're definitely NOT weak, do not listen to anyone who's telling you that. Please do keep fighting and do keep writing if it helps at least a little bit. You're much, MUCH stronger than you believe! Please do NOT hurt yourself! That's the only thing I'm asking you! I hope things will get better soon for you. Let us know if you feel any better if you wish to do so. Feel free to PM me anytime as well. I'll be here to listen and to offer you support. I'm sure plenty of others will do that as well. Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, @ExplodingSun56, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ons! Please keep fighting and keep rocking as much as you possibly can like you're already wonderfully doing all and entirely by yourself! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING! :grouphu: