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Old Aug 26, 2019, 03:48 AM
oniontree oniontree is offline
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I really want to know how others have handled job searching while working through complex mental or emotional health issues. I'm currently seeking treatment for some deep-rooted childhood trauma (been watching self-help videos in the meantime, and taking Wellbutrin and Lexapro), and I'm afraid to tell my job recruitment agency that I've never really been able to handle interacting with others for too long before either going emotionally numb or getting exhausted to tears. I've only been working with this agency for about a week, but I've been keeping secret from them that, at most of my previous jobs, I was beyond anxious every single day, even at the job where I was just stocking flowers at a home improvement store. I'm afraid of not even being able to hold myself together through the interviews this time around; it's getting harder and harder to fake being confident as I'm becoming more and more aware of how emotionally and socially underdeveloped I've been and still am. But I've spoken in front of lots of people plenty enough times, I've worked call centers and been an office assistant, and I'm good at solving complex problems and being very resourceful. I hope I don't come off a mess while trying to hide my depression, anxiety, and brain fog. If anyone finds out that I have this problem, I feel like I'm screwed. In my mind I'm already screwed because I obviously wouldn't fit in at most companies. I hope I'm wrong. I think I'm wrong.
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Thanks for this!
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