Hello wayrestsky: We here on PC cannot offer mental health diagnoses. Plus I'm not a mental health professional. So I can't suggest anything with regard to what may be going on with you. That is something for which you would need to see a mental health professional. However I noticed this is your first post here on PC. Welcome to Psych Central. 
You mentioned you have OCD & depression. Here are links to 4 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that may be of interest:
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) | Psych Central
Depression: Symptoms, Types & Treatments | Psych Central
Living with Depression: A Guide for Coping with Depressive Feelings | Psych Central
Psychotic Depression
I hope you find PC to be of benefit. 
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