You're in my Thoughts and Prayers, @spikes! I am DEEPLY SORRY for what you're going through I hope things will start to improve soon for you. Please be kind to yourself. I'm REALLY HAPPY that you're still with us and still writing here. Definitely try to help yourself in any way you can. I understand it's hard! Have you already tried buying a punching bag? That can help sometimes. Please be kind to yourself and keep writing here if it helps! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME if you need Advice and Support! I'm SURE that EVERYONE here will gladly listen to what you have to say and help you out IN ANY WAY THEY POSSIBLY CAN as well! Sending many safe, warm hugs to You, @spikes, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking as much as you possibly can like you're already wonderfully doing all and entirely by yourself! PLEASE DO KEEP FIGHTING AND PLEASE DO KEEP ROCKING!