So you never responded to my text from Friday which is actually okay. My weekend was horrible and I tried my best to stay present and somewhat busy. I texted you at a low point and told you it was okay if you didn't get it or respond. What I'd frustrating me is that you have not sent a reminder text about my appointment tomorrow and to make sure I am okay. I keep trying to remind myself is that it would not be the first time you sent the reminder text at dinner time even though it is normally around lunch time. The is a piece of me that is worried you are upset because of me texting you. That isnt how you have ever operated but what if it is now??

I also dont know how to approach what is going on. So much has happened and just thinking about talking about it makes me feel like vomiting, nauseaus, and light headed. It will take more than an hour to l do with but that is all I have tomorrow.