spikes, I'm so happy that you posted this because frankly, I was very worried about you. I know others have been, too.

When you're very depressed, it's hard to think that anything will be helpful, but that's just not true. I can definitely understand how discouraging it must seem to have had a couple hospitalizations already this year, and 15 or so, to date. However, staying safe is the most important thing. Coloring is better than never being able to color again. Pacing is much better than never being able to pace again. Sometimes things don't work perfectly the 1st, 5th, 10th, or even 15th or 20th, but if they do eventually, it's more than worth it. I'm extremely serious! I know it's hard. I do.