It might be possible that you just haven’t found one crucial med in a combo that will help you find and keep stability longer ???

I know a few IP stays for me when in a huge crisis they have found a medication, even one I took in the past is the missing link to really level me out quickly.

Sure IP isn’t like a trip to Disney but for many of us it’s just needed..it’s a legit safe place to be where your truly able to say how you feel and thoughts you have and also saying outloud to someone that you did infact take extra meds and head toward a bridge. There’s something almost freeing to say such things verbally out loud.

You have fought so hard for so long, let professionals truly help you.