I'm tired of settling for less.

I've been thinking of changing jobs again and looking for one that will accommodate my schooling. I was thinking last night about doing my baking/catering business on the side as a job while I go to school. I'm just so afraid of taking chances or just going for it because I'm afraid of failing or falling flat on my face. It's happened before, so this isn't just my anxiety talking. I'm sick of these low paying, crap jobs. It's pretty much all I've done.

Part of me is telling me to just go for it. Start that business. Take those painting classes. Learn to skate. Give voice acting lessons another try. Do creative writing. But I always feel like I have to take the safe route. It's part of the reason why I decided on Accounting. Sort of as a back up if/when all else fails. I'm just worried about screwing up and making a BIG error that could cost me everything.

This isn't where I thought I would be pushing 40. My parents have always told me to take the safe route, possibly because they're scared of me failing. To be honest, they haven't given me the best life advice as I look back in retrospect.

Maybe I am rushing things, but I'm tired of not seeing results. I want to accomplish something that will "WOW" others and make them proud of me. Being in a rut sucks.