I agree with Miguel'smom -- did your cousin say why you should go to IP? I'm not saying you SHOULD go to IP just because your cousin said so. I'm just wondering what he/she told you.

Also, do you feel safe or like you're going to do something you regret? If you don't feel safe, then definitely reach out to a mental health professional.

IMO, you should ask to see your T earlier than Thursday. See if you can get an appt for today or tomorrow.