That's terrible. I saw someone post a similar thought to someone here maybe 2 or 3 years ago. I was shocked and horrified. Please don't take anything like that to heart. We here care about you. Have you spoken to a doctor or therapist about how you are feeling? I would recommend talking to a therapist if you can. You could join "7 cups of tea" and talk to people on there. You don't even have to formally join, I don't think.

But it's important that you have something or someone to hold onto, and family and friends generally don't necessarily know how to help.

You are a very good soul. ((((Hugs))))) and [emoji3531][emoji3531][emoji3531][emoji3531][emoji3531]

Please keep the phone numbers of the Suicide Prevention and anyone else you might want to call in your pocket at all times, or in your bag.

I don't have the number of the Suicide Prevention hotline handy, but the number is probably in the depression forum, etc. I hope you will call them, or the UK equivalent. Please don't try anything drastic. [emoji3531][emoji3531][emoji3531][emoji847][emoji847][emoji847][emoji3531][emoji3531][emoji3531]