I was told recently by a psychotherapist that I am not mentally ill because I don't hear voices, am not psychotic and don't have BPD.
So why am I still wasting people's time (DR, psychiatry team etc.) if the way I feel is all my fault because I am stupid and pathetic? I feel so guilty asking people to help me when I know I don't deserve it, and when the services are so overstretched trying to help the people who are actually ill.
I have tried so hard to get better, I have don't everything they have asked me to do, but I still fail at everything and just feel worse and worse.
I should just do them all a favour and shut up and stop bothering them