Are you currently seeing a therapist, @Wimbledongirl? I feel like that mayREALLY help you!! If you're seeing one already, definitely talk things through with him and let him know his concerns! Please keep writing if it helps you like the WISE and WONDERFUL Fuzzybear has already wisely and wonderfully said BETTER THAN I EVER COULD! PLEASE DO KEEP FIGHTING AND DO KEEP ROCKING! We can't diagnose you but we can hopefully help you to figure it all out. I hope things will get better soon for you! Welcome to this WONDERFUL Forum! Please be kind to yourself and make yourself at home. Definitely check out the Dissociative Disorder Forums like the WISE and WONDERFUL raging vortex has already wisely and wonderfully said BETTER THAN I EVER COULD! Feel free to PM me anytime when in need of Advice and Support. I'm sure plenty of others will gladly help you out as well! Contact the Admins and Moderators for additional clarification as well! Sending many safe, warm hugs to You, @Wimbledongirl, Your Family, Your Friends and ALL Of Your Loved Ones! Please keep fighting and keep rocking as much as you possibly can like you're already wonderfully doing entirely on your own! PLEASE DO KEEP FIGHTING AND DO KEEP ROCKING LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF! Wishing you a WONDERFUL stay in this WONDERFUL Forums! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING!!