I had a bad day when I posted above. Getting off the Internet, which I did for 2 days, helped me a lot. Addictively reading and watching videos on my smart phone undermines me getting things done. So I canceled the service. I can still get on using my phones mobile data capability, but that's expensive . . . so it will be a disincentive. This morning I have been on, but I need to stop it.

I found that just getting the apartment in better order helps relieve a lot of my discontent. The I days I cleaned I found caring for my guy easier. I allowed myself to read magazines and look at catalogues, but they don't eat up my time like the smart-phone was doing.

He's getting weaker day by day. I will be happiest, in the long run, if I continue caring for him. It won't go on forever. When be becomes clearly in the final stage of dying, then there are 2 hospice units where he could possibly be placed. They do provide decent care. The VA social worker discussed this with me.

Have to put down this phone. I appreciate the posts I still receive here and the interest shown.