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Old Mar 27, 2008, 09:57 PM
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Okay. So heres what happened:

The very first thing she did was ask me if there was any questions in particular I had, concerns, ect. I wasn't expecting that, so even though I wanted to ask about both bipolar and the iron thing, I said no, figuring i'd wait a little bit. so she started asking a lot of questions, that I wasn't expecting at all. She asked me about my family relationships, friends at school, (do I have friends, Do I pick on people, do people pick on me?) and a lot of stuff like that. I wasn't expecting anything like that at all. Then she asked me about depression. She asked me if I ever feel depressed, or have any thoughts of ending my life. I told her that I do get depressed sometimes, but not to the point of wanting and willing to take my own life. ( Although I've felt that low, I've never felt brave enough to do anything more then pray that I'll never seen the sun rise again... and doubt I ever will) she asked me when I get depressed, and for what reasons. I told her I get depressed for no reason, and that it just comes and goes, for no reason at all, I'll get depressed for a little while, then I'll be fine and happy, and then I'll feel depressed again. so she asked me if I've ever seen a counselor, or talked about it with anyone. I told her no. She asked me if I thought my mom might know I get depressed sometimes. I told her no. She asked me if I wanted my mom to know, or if I wanted to talk to someone about it (aka- therapist) and I told her no. She told me that if the depression stops me from doing things, or interrupts my life then it may be worth looking into. She asked if it ever kept me up so I couldn't sleep , or kept me from doing my school work b/c I couldn't concentrate, I told her that I sleep too much, and that it does make it really hard to concentrate. She asked me again if I wanted to see a counselor. I said no. She reminded me that anything I tell her is confidential, unless I am going to hurt myself or someone else. She asked me if I want to hurt myself or someone else- I said no. She asked me how I cope with it, and I wanted to say "I don't", I was thinking "I SI." but instead I told her I just go in my room, watch tv, listen to music, ect. and wait it out because it comes and goes, and I don't know why. ((Major hinting to a bigger problem, as far as I'm concerned)) At this point I could feel my facial muscles getting really tight ( Warning sign that I'm about to burst into tears) and she tells me that
she thinks if it is interrupting my life then it is worth looking farther into, and that If I ever change my mind I should call her. She she moved on, and started asking me weather or not I've been sexually active, ect, then the normal physical examination..And then three simotaneous shots. Fun .
I remember when I was younger, my mom used to yell at me because the skin on the back of my neck was really dark, and she used to say I don't wash right...and the doctor told me it might be pre-diabetes. So now I get to go have bloodwork done. . . My mom wanted me to get guardasil, which means I'm coming back in two months for my next round, and meanwhile she wants me to get more proteins in my diet, and see if that helps the sleeping problem. . . I don't know why, but today I've been convincing myself its a good thing I didn't mention anything, because theres no way I'm bipolar! I'm perfectly fine! ...but then i think about it and realize most likely, thats not the case at all.

Okay. Long post. . .
So, I'm going to wait, and if two months from now my moods start spiraling again, then this time I'll try to talk to my parents . . .

Thanks for all your concerns guys!