I'm confused and that makes me scared and that makes me angry and so then I want to do stuff. I know you think I can control myself if I want to, but I feel like I'm on the edge of a cliff and I've just lost my balance. Just teetering on the edge and a storm's brewing. I don't know which way I'm going to fall and if I fall off the cliff, will it be because I didn't try hard enough and just decided to fall?

I'm panicking and that isn't helping anything.