get off my body...is what i would say over and over and over and over in my mind as it was happening, when i was a little kid.....but no words would ever come out...ever...and there is so much guilt wrapped up inside me for never saying stop or no or get off....and just being a rag doll limp and helpless....why wasn't i strong...why didn't i just get back inside my body and do something...why did my mind take me so far away...so i could just watch...it was like watching from behind glass that i could see through..but no one could see me...