Today was the 19th session with T. I hadn’t really thought I have seen him so many times already. Anyway, I was not in a good frame of mind when I got to his office, so the first thing that I told him was “I’m not very talkative today”. He didn’t comment on it, just asked me how have I felt lately. I told him that some days were good and others were not (which is not the truth, but I can’t bring myself to being honest about that… I want him to think that I’m better to avoid being referred to the psychiatrist again). He told me to explain that a little bit further. I told him that I was ok up until Sunday, but that from that day I was not ok anymore. We talked some about Sunday and what could have triggered me feeling bad.
Then, I stoped talking. After some seconds, he asked what I was thinking about. I told him that I was tired of trying to do things better and always ending up doing the same. He asked me to be more specific.
That was it.