thanks so much for being open and honest - I know it's difficult.

i'm getting to the point where it's affecting things I do, to the point where this along with my anxiety prevents me from doing certain things! and of course I can't explain to others the reason why...
i'm not the type to 'seek out' help, so this could prove quite challenging for me. i too have massive trust issues, so completely understand that!

i'm 'too smart' for my own good at times - i can 'tell' where certain questions are 'leading to' or what they are looking for - so I change my answer to hide the truth! like i said, MASSIVE trust issues.